2012/05/07

Poetry Slam*

Today my class had no teaching frome the first to the fifth lesson because our teacher had enrolled us for a current project called "Heimat 2.0" (= Motherland 2.0. What a terrible name. Also I don't understand the connection uuuhhhh but need to be honest - I don't understand the whole project.) The reason for it is our german topic "German Rap". Although poetry slam isn't the same... 

 

Somehow I can't loathe German Rap but... okay. Each to their own ;) 

 

Our last excercise was to write a text by ourselves. I had no idea what I could write about but the humanity.

 

Der Mensch trägt nichts zur Erde bei, jedenfalls nichts positives.
Der Mensch ist nie zufrieden mit dem, was er hat, weiß aber auch nicht, was er genau will, zu wem er gehört.
Er lässt Leute, denen er etwas bedeutet, links liegen, nur um populärer zu wirken. Er verstellt sich, um beliebter zu sein, doch im Grunde kann keiner von allen geliebt werden. Wird irgendwann verabscheut von denen, die er nicht registriert hat als das, was sie wirklich sind. Doch diese hassen ihn nicht für das, was er ihnen angetan hat, denn sie sind zu blöd, das negative in ihm zu sehen, obwohl er der Dieb ihrer Nerven, ihrer Herzen ist – nein, sie hassen ihn für das, was er ist und eigentlich müssten sie sich deshalb selbst hassen, eigentlich ist keiner wirklich einzigartig, eigentlich sind wir nur von außen verschieden, eigentlich will jeder so sein, wie die Stars aus dem Fernsehen. Doch ob das würde gutgehen? Sie wollen nicht verstehen, dass sie müssen einsehen, dass diese nur vor der Kamera aufrecht stehen.
Alle sind gleich – im Inneren böse. Alle egoistisch oder lieben wir, um anderen Geborgenheit zu geben? Nein! Um unsere eigene Lust zu stillen.
Keiner kann sich richtig ändern. Zweite Chancen bringen nichts. Einmal Lügner, immer Lügner. Einmal Dieb, immer Dieb. Einmal Schläger, immer Schläger. Einmal süchtig, immer süchtig.
Das ist jedem klar. Ihr wisst, das ist wahr. Wir rennen denen hinterher, die uns nicht registrieren. Wie vorhin gesagt, wir sollten uns selbst hassen.

Merkt ihr's? Wir sind alle gleich!

I'm too lazy for translating it, sorry :D I would pass the work to google but it isn't really.. good^^ Basically the text is about us all, we don't know what we really want and sometimes we're running after people that just aren't good for us. So we leave our true friends. We're all the same and so on. Sometimes the individual parts don't fit together and I think it sounds a bit like "Anyway.. We're all crap, it's not worth to live blah blah blah." That wasn't the embassy :D and I'm not really sure if I'm believing in all the things I wrote. But okay :P

I was impressed by the text of my friend becaus it sounded really good AND it rhymed ;D
Maybe I'll persuade her to publish it on my blog :D

 

*If you don't know what "Poetry Slam" is, you can read it up here :)


2012/05/04

Sometimes
    I just can't understand certain people.

If your best friend would betray you, for the second time, would you still act like everythings okay?
I wouldn't.
It's also 'bout some other friends and no one treats them this way! How can somebody be so wrong and HOW could I be so blind?
I'm hoping that someday I'll take the chance and just tell him everything I ever wanted him to know...

So mad at him. Slowly he's going to lose his old friends.


If theres any song in the world which really reflects my feelings (not for the first time ;))... it's "Freaking me out" by Simple Plan and Alex Gaskarth. And that isn't a lovesong. Awesome.

What the hell’s going on
Have you gone undercover?
You were here, now you’re not
Been replaced by another
'cause it’s still your face
But there’s something strange
Not the one I remember
Can you please explain
Did they wipe your brain?
Is this gonna be forever?
(...)
Who the hell are you
Freaking me out, freaking me out
And now everything you say, everything you do
Is freaking me out, freaking me out (You freaking me out)

So why’d you play your games
Who’re you trying to fool?
Freaking me out, freaking me out
And I swear I thought I knew you
But all that was yesterday
And now you turn it around, what’s that about?
'cause you’re freaking me out, freaking me out




2012/05/02



What long hair causes :3 



Today I remembered of myself two years ago. And oh man. Which music I was listening to? But hey, it was getting better - wasn't this mainstream shit. Somehow it makes me kinda sad..or at least happy? Don't know. It's just bringing up memories... Memories.. Right.

On 2. May 2010 my class level made a one-week-trip to Prin, Chiemsee. The main attraction was sailing. Months ago we were learning how to do all that knots. Wasn't sooo complicated ;-) 

The time was really nice. The boys and girls were sleeping in two different houses. The girls' rooms were named after places in Bavaria. Together with my current best friends Chloé, Camilla and Sarah, I was in room >Würzburg<.

The first day we should devide us into little groups with which we would go on a sailboat.  Derya (She moved to Berlin gnaaaa miss her <3), Chloé, Sabrina, Natalie and me were getting a boat with the latest sail. So we were convinced that we would win the regatta that took place the penultimate day. Everyday we were like "Our boat's the best, we'll win, you'll be the biggest loosers!" I shall return to this :P

Although the food was.. terrible, we had the biggest fun while eating. On each table stood a small bucket for the eat leftovers. The guys I was sitting with and me overcrowded them. The best part was that my former crush was sitting right in front of me ;D 
Ohh guess how long I was fallen for him- still nothing came out of us (I realized that this isn't bad. In contrary :)). "He's not lovely, he's not lovely, no no no..." helped me really ;-) I should stop talking about him. BUT this is important: At the regatta >his boat<  touched ours, so both of us were disqualified. Chloé and me acted as if we were mad at them but otherwise we would've lost lol.  Best and fastest boat, yeah yeah. By the way, it was called >Poseidon<. The boys' boat was cute :3 so small haha :3
One day it was too windy, so the small boats couldn't sail. Therefor we went to Prinavera, an adventure pool in the city. Most of the time I was sitting with some friends in the steam grotto. I looove steam grottos :D.

 I would like to write down EVERYTHING but it's really too too too much -> I'm too lazy, it's late - I want to sleep ... The next few days I'll probably continue...maybe..Or next year ;-)

Night :*

2012/05/01

 Just a little late you found me

 
But why'd you had to wait?

>>Changes are taking the pace we're going through<<
                                             David Bowie

 

Some time ago, my friend Canie and me made a kind of photoshoot. It were many pictures but not each of them was good enough to be posted. Soooo here three :D








2012/04/29

Sometimes the blues is just a passing bird..

..and why can't that always be? :)

 

The Tallest Man On Earth - The Dreamer

                 

2012/04/16

 

   "Why are you so quiet?"


Although I've heard it frequently, the question "Why are you so quiet?", is still annoying 
me. Because I'm not quiet or shy. Not anymore. People just have to get to know my real personality. Okay, I'm really not the most talkative person. I mean, what should I talk about with people, who aren't in my "closer environment"? They're not interested in my problems or similar. There's just nothing to talk with them, except that senseless or casual talks. Even though, if someone aks you, why you're not talking anything, they maybe don't wanna be rude. Most of them think it's normal to talk all the time. They don't understand others who aren't the same. Or maybe they just care about why.
So, next time someone is asking you, why you're quiet, "Because I haven't anything important to say." may be the best answer. Why should they argue with that?